The New Year is always an interesting time for me. I never really make conscious resolutions, though there are always some things I want to do. And while most people are making grandiose resolutions for the coming year, more often than not, I find myself lamenting all the things I hadn’t accomplished in the preceding year and letting my mind twist me into a funk that threatens to drown me. It happened this year too. I spent New Year’s Eve thinking about all the things I want to do this year, then let New Year’s Day suck the excitement out of me, to the point where I didn’t even want to get out of bed.
The crazy thing is that I DID accomplish some great things in 2012. Not EVERY thing, but enough to make it a pretty great year. And my family accomplished things that were downright amazing.
- My daughter beat cancer. She freaking beat cancer! If I had nothing else to celebrate, that would be enough.
- Did I mention my daughter beat cancer? She whooped its butt and sent it packing.
- I lost 47 lbs. I’ve been wanting to lose weight for so long that I’d given up I’d ever be able to do it for real real. Well, I did it, and I’m STILL losing.
- I regained my self-love and confidence. I could attribute these to the weight loss, and that certainly helped, but even before I started losing weight, I started surrounding myself with positive examples, largely via Instagram, and I started to really love myself again. As in every lump, bump and curve. My confidence still takes a hit every now and again, but for the most part, I feel happier with myself today than I have in my entire adult life. Really.
Plans for 2013
I think part of the reason I’ve never felt compelled to work toward my resolutions is that I never write them down. Here are the very specific things I want to accomplish this year:
- I still have about 30 lbs. to lose. I will do it. Period. Actually, I’m already doing it.
- As a family, we will work our butts off to get our finances in order and save toward finally buying our own home.
- I’m ready to sell Green Your Decor. When I started blogging in 2008, GYD was my baby. I nurtured it and grew it to the best of my ability, but my heart’s just not in it any more. I still love writing about all things green, and I haven’t lost my passion for beautiful things. I just don’t have the drive to really write about eco-friendly decor any more. I have a very specific, huge buyer in mind, who I truly believe will be able to see the value in my site not just for its Adsense earnings, but for its true potential. I believe this buyer will be able to do what I could not: Make Green Your Decor a household name. So I’m doing what I can to make this happen. Universe, are you hearing me?
- I need blogging to turn into something bigger. It’s been nearly 5 years since I started this journey, and I really need to think about where I want this to take me. I’m considering writing a book, though I’m not sure what about. I’m working to make Green & Gorgeous more successful than Green Your Decor, hopefully so I can parlay it into more ambassadorships, spokesperson gigs and perhaps even speaking engagements — assuming I can get over my crippling fear of public speaking. At the end of the day though, I don’t want to be just a blogger. I want to start thinking outside the confines of my little space on the web and figure out ways to take my messages of sustainable living, creativity and design, love for beautiful things and people, self love, confidence, and making the most of the life you’re blessed with to a wider audience.
- I’m considering pursuing some modeling work. I can’t believe those words just came from me, but I’m really interested in this possibility. Since I started sharing my outfit of the day posts, I’ve had an incredible amount of positive feedback, and have had so many women tell me how I’ve inspired them and that I should model. I shrugged it off the first couple of times I heard it, but I really do enjoy dressing up and being in front of the camera. Maybe there’s really something there…
- For my graphic design business, Hibiscus Creative, I need to sign some retainer clients to make my income more predictable. It will also help stabilize my business so I can eventually hire one or two other designers and/or developers. I never thought I’d want employees, but I really don’t want Hibiscus Creative to die when I do, so I need take steps toward making sure it will be around for the long haul.
- My husband and I really pan to buckle down and grow Differently Clothing. It has so much potential to generate many, many more sales, but we need to work on a formal marketing plan and a schedule for when we’ll release new designs to keep things fresh.
- With three distinct arms of business – graphic design, web publishing and t-shirt design & sales – we need to focus on how best to organize them so we can grow in a way that is sustainable and manageable — likely with some outside help.
- I need to socialize. I’m ridiculously uncomfortable in a lot of social situations, unless I’ll be surrounded by people I know pretty well. I get anxious and talk myself out of doing, well…everything. Conferences, trips, networking events…all of it. I really need to work on this one.
Suffice it to say, I have every intention of making this an awesome, successful year. And now that I’ve said these out loud, they actually feel much more within reach.
Why the heck did I never do this before?